I Sharmi Diamond Ep-34

34. Sharmi

I clearly understood that he was planning to trap me to finish his job. I was completely caught. At one point, I felt like saying, "Go ahead, you useless guys, do whatever you can," but when I thought of my mother, I couldn't even consider it. My mother is my only support. Everything I do is for her. If I couldn't get out of this mess and ended up in jail, everything would be over. There was no other way. "You will help me, won't you?" I asked Rajan, looking at him with hope.

He kept looking at me. "Tell me, won't you help?" I asked again.

"Does this even need asking, Sharmi? I will do it," he said.

On one hand, there was the guilt that he, too, was caught in this trouble because of me. But on the other hand, if I had started to depend on someone after my mother for concern, for fighting, for taking risks, for supportive words, it was Rajan. I didn't know why. I couldn't explain what drew me to him. But with every day I spent with him, I felt my trust in him growing stronger. I knew that the help he was agreeing to now was a significant risk.

"Give us two days. We need some time to gather the courage to act according to your plan. I'll update you daily. Leave Subbu alone, she's innocent," I said.

"From now on, no fucking around. Only work mode. But I'll be here until this is over. What about you, Vairam? Do you have any objections?" Rajan asked, looking at Vairam. "If you do, just try saying it," he sneered. Vairam was in no position to say anything now. He was in the position of having to listen.

While travelling in the car, Rajan and I remained silent. It was night when we reached home. When he said he was leaving after dropping me off, I said, "Why don't you stay here tonight?" He looked at me as if asking why. I felt it would be good if he stayed with me. Perhaps that showed in my eyes, because he agreed to stay.

After ordering dinner on Swiggy and giving my mother her medication, I slowly went upstairs. He was watching TV, not asleep. I gently went and sat beside him. While watching TV, he put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer. I liked it very much. It was an embrace without any intoxication, lust, or excitement. In that embrace, I felt a sense of security. He continued watching TV, seemingly unaware of anything else, without loosening his grip. I too tightly hugged his waist, buried my face in his shoulder, and closed my eyes. I didn't know how long I stayed like that. When I woke up, I was lying on Rajan's shoulder. His embrace hadn't loosened even a bit. I suddenly pulled away and asked, holding his shoulders, "Sorry... does your hand hurt?"

"It's nothing. I just didn't want to disturb your sleep," he smiled.

"Isn't it because of me that you're going through all this trouble?" As I said this, tears started flowing from my eyes without my even realising it, and he panicked.

"Oh no... why are you crying?"

"I don't know. Just let me cry for a bit," I said, hugging him tightly and crying. He waited patiently as usual and stroked my hair. "Are you trying to make me sleep again?" I playfully pushed him away, leaned over him, and kissed him. He was initially taken aback, then relaxed and started kissing me, gently biting my lower lip. I had never been this intimate with Rajan before. I had been used without any consideration. This was the first time I truly experienced lovemaking. Could it be this joyful? Could it be this beautiful? I felt the love and affection we had for each other, without any perversion, overflowing and manifesting as passion. I was happy. I thought about what the woman Rajan had been with had said about him. It was true. He lasts. I even felt a little jealous. At this moment, I had forgotten all my problems. We fell asleep just like that.

When I woke up in the morning, Rajan wasn't beside me. He was bathed and ready. Half-asleep, I looked at him and said, "I love you." "We can do all that later. First, take a bath and let's leave. We need to try and get out of this mess quickly," Rajan said.